this is the first time i ever felt so dejected since i started uni. really. its like a game and i'm the ball being throwed about by 3 parties. and i have no control over it at all. i was made looking like a fool. and i acted like a fool cause i could not control and i broke down. ever heard of someone crying at work place on their first job? well now you do. but i did not do so in front of those monkeys. i did in a corner. but well, its still foolish of me.

i couldn't sleep over the whole matter for the past 2 days and guess what. cause of my lack of sleep, i lost concentration at times, and at such times, i committed stupid mistakes like hearing the wrong instructions etc... and it got me into deeper shit. and all these clashes occur with one stupid asshole in the office. i was seriously pitying her when i first came into office. but well, now i don't. cause she's not worth a single bit of my pity. going all out to make your collegues look bad infront of boss. some may say thats the way. i know thats the fact. but it still takes time for me to learn. i'll learn,... thats for sure...

other than these little hicups, i must say that i'm still ok with my job. there are stil nice pple around thats for sure. my after work hours are nicely filled up too. ok. thats all for now. cause thats all for my lunch hour le.

anyway gerger, rest assured right now i'm too deep into thinking of how to outshine "she" that i'm not really keen on guys anymore. you can say that i'm more into gals. haha

good luck to all... meiqi, shihui, shihui, xr, lishan, weiloong etc who's still having exams and most prob won't be able to read this. jia you lo!